Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Dunno why i feel like saying this all of a sudden
but i fucking love all of my bros and sisters in rp man
you guys are always there for me, and due to recent changes
i can tell who are the real friends, and who are just people
out to make use of you and for their personal benefit
together we share happiness and sorrow,
like trekkers, when we climbed gunung datuk,
we showed our concern and love for each other
and i realized i have come to a point in life where we
differentiate adults from kids,
Albania,Amanda,ian,afiq,hasan, azza, yan nee, rozy
23rd july was the date grandpa passed away
at first i was a little sad, i didnt really realize how much it meant
but when we performed the prayers, i realized how important he was,
and tears began to well up in my eyes, i saw for the first time , my family on my father's side
all my uncles, cousins, aunties and everyone whom i was related to but never saw
the joy of being re-united, but all in the sadness of the death.
when we were performing the last rites at the crematorium, i couldnt help it but cry
when we were young, he would dote on us, for we were the grandsons, the future of his generation and family name. if not for him, my brothers and i wouldnt be here,
he slogged to make sure our fathers prospered, and it's all because of him that im
enjoying life today, as i watched his coffin move into the furnace, i felt like i wanted to
cry out loud, but as my aunt told me, i have to be strong.
it was the saddest moment of my life.
but still, grandpa has gone to a better place,
and i hope he enjoys his afterlife and i pray that god will take care of him well
if i were a little boy, my mother would tell me that grandpa has gone to be with god,
but now that i'm an adult, now that we're adults, we have to accept the crudeness of death
and i guess that death is the final chapter of life on earth, and we all have to face it when it comes
whatever it is,
rest in peace, grandpa.
