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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

its 9 more days,

actually, come to think of it, im kind of dumb to give up being a goalkeeper
after playing as a goalkeeper for 4 and a half years, so much effort put in
and i just give it up like that,
after all, i shouldn't just let one persons point of view spoil my self-esteem
the teams i've played for, 2b boys, kayu united, rangerz, scorpionz fc, and my punggol sec
school team, all the experience ive gained through this years, all the tournaments i played in
and i choose to give up just like that, i dunno why, but i feel the spirit back in me
after watching spain play russia and italy, i watched my idol casillas play, and it sort of
awakened the spirit in me, so far i've been praised so much, a hidden talent of mine discovered
im not boasting or anything, but i've had people telling me how good i am and stuff,
i was almost unbeatable last time, the memories of playing with school team,
yes, being a goalkeeper is tough, but the good side is, if u perform your task well
u get a sense of joy that cannot be described, it's like the best thing in the world,
inter house compeitition, 6 games played, 0 goals let in, and 1 goal score
that was my record, and for a keeper to not let in any goals during a tournament and to score 1 goal is miraculous.
the joy of playing in your homeground, all your brothers, your classmates watching you
cheering you on, and when u make a brilliant save, the sound of the spectators is incredible.
all these memories, how hard i trained, how much pain i was put through, how much sorrow it took when u lost a game, it was all a learning experience, i realized, after all these years, i lost my form because i was busy with other stuff, i didnt put in the effort i used to put in, and when i played for scorpionz, some people in the team just didnt appreciate me, that made me think i was uselss, i was lousy, but the fact is im not, and i know it, because i can feel it, and after so long, i feel like i must return, i must do it, its like, when play, and i suck, its hard to improve,
but when i try to quit, it's even harder,
after watching euro 2008, i realised that determination is all it takes.
4 and a half years, im not putting it to waste,
im returning guys, and i will prove scorpionz fc wrong,
for when i walked out of the tournament that day, was the day where it ended,
the day where not my life as a goalkeeper ended, but the day where my low self esteem ended its life,

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